Sunday, June 15, 2008

Regrets....

They say you should live your life with no regrets. We would all like to say that this is true for us. But sadly, some of us do have the regrets in our past.
Some can say that they have none, others still can say they only have a handful, and then there are some like myself who have more than we care to think about, but sometimes late at night when we can't sleep they creep back to the front of our minds.
Not to go into any great detail on my regrets, which there are many and this is not the place to tell your deepest darkest secrets, I will say a few things...
There is a stretch of my life where I allowed myself to let others determine what I did who I listened to, who my friends could be and what I would do. I am not going to place the blame on anyone except myself, I forgot who I was just so that I would be accepted and feel needed. At the time I knew it was wrong and I was never really happy, but I was afraid to stop letting others determine my lifestyle for me, so I just stayed a shell of myself, until one day when I realized that it had to stop and I needed to grow a backbone and be the person I knew I was meant to be.
I tell you this story to let you know that even though my road has not always been perfect and at times I walked or ran down it with my eyes closed, that there is hope for the future. I chose to stop and open my eyes and really examine who I had become and take back a hold of my life and my destiny. I still don't always make the right choices but I am doing my best to live the rest of my life with no regrets.

2 comments:

carrie & troy keiser said...

Oh, Meg, What a great post! I think at times we all look at our lives and think these thoughts. Well put.

Ryanne said...

You are the best sis and those choices in the past help mold us and give us perspective. I have thought those thoughts before myself.