Sixth Picture...

Oh what a cruel world it is!! This is a picture of Shaylee the day we brought her home from the hospital. Apparently she was not happy with being passed around.

Every Princess Needs A Castle

So I got creative yesterday and decided to make two boxes into one castle for Shaylee. The main problem with this idea is...trying to take on such an ambitious task with a one year old is insane! Everything that I taped on she came right along behind me and ripped off laughing all the time. And here I am the "adult" saying "No sweetie mommy is trying to make you a beautiful playhouse." The whole time trying not to get angry, because lets face it, it was kind of funny and in the grand scheme of things would it really matter if the thing didn't get finished. All the while trying to run defense between her and the castle and still manage to complete my "awesome MASTERPIECE". So it turned out looking like a five year old did it, but hey I am still proud that I was able to get it finished and not pull my hair out, because my daughter wanted to demolish it before I had even finished constructing it.

Home Alone.....

So for the very first time since I had Shaylee, I am going to be spending a night all by myself. It feels so weird not having anyone here. I am totally lonely. So, what do I do, clean my car, clean my kitchen, wash my sheets....I think you can see where this is going. Instead of taking my time alone to just relax here I am busier than I am usually after a day that I worked too.
Isn't it so weird that first time after you have a child being away from them for a night? it seems like a piece of you is missing that without you aren't sure what to do for yourself. or maybe it is just me, I don't know.
Well, on the 23rd my baby girl will a year old, a year old, I can't believe that it has been that long, time flys the older you get it seems.

The redecorators.....

The above photos were my idea of redecorating and Shaylee's idea of redecorating. You decide which you think is better!

Regrets....

They say you should live your life with no regrets. We would all like to say that this is true for us. But sadly, some of us do have the regrets in our past.
Some can say that they have none, others still can say they only have a handful, and then there are some like myself who have more than we care to think about, but sometimes late at night when we can't sleep they creep back to the front of our minds.
Not to go into any great detail on my regrets, which there are many and this is not the place to tell your deepest darkest secrets, I will say a few things...
There is a stretch of my life where I allowed myself to let others determine what I did who I listened to, who my friends could be and what I would do. I am not going to place the blame on anyone except myself, I forgot who I was just so that I would be accepted and feel needed. At the time I knew it was wrong and I was never really happy, but I was afraid to stop letting others determine my lifestyle for me, so I just stayed a shell of myself, until one day when I realized that it had to stop and I needed to grow a backbone and be the person I knew I was meant to be.
I tell you this story to let you know that even though my road has not always been perfect and at times I walked or ran down it with my eyes closed, that there is hope for the future. I chose to stop and open my eyes and really examine who I had become and take back a hold of my life and my destiny. I still don't always make the right choices but I am doing my best to live the rest of my life with no regrets.

A picture is worth a thousand words...

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